love....is it a pain?

Yes its all that i do remember when she

knows the meaning of love, when she felt

the love, which was very powerful than

anything in this world, the belief

that she had on love gave her strength in

doing anything, gave her confidence that

she never had, which taught her the

happiness in giving, which made her feel

on top of the world, when she was in

thought of him, it gives her the

happiness to the extreme level, which she

had a feel that she doesnt want anything

but just love, its was an awesome feeling....

That was the day when he said "i love you" to her...

She felt nothing was so beautiful than her.....

no one where handsome than him...

its was all the magic of love, the feel that never

ends...

the extent which lead her to do everything for him,

even she gave her 100% she felt "i want to give

more...."

she just wants to be alone in a room full

of his thoughts,which reminds her all the

sweet and sore memories he left her as a

along lasting gift forever........



Those times he used to make her laugh....

make her smile...make her blush...make her cry...

make her angry...make her happy...

make her sad....

but ultimately he was with her...

he was in her as a great feel in

different shades....she cant forget him

till she lives....

he was there in her as a feel called

love....

even though he is not with her....

he is in her...

she may run fast... but still...

she has to stop at a point of time where his

memories stops her...in going forward...

she may meet many but he is the one ...

she want, she admire , she respect, she like,

she believe, she love, she used to feel

great about his small things.... which

matter her a lot where people thought her

a fool....

but only she knows how things go.. once

she think of him....she feel like

heaven...no matter even he hurts her...

but its a sweet pain each and every

tear of her's tells how much she love

him...how much she miss him...the value

and the importance she gave to a person

in her life....she believed that no one

can replace him in this world... she felt only his words making her

survive only his thoughts are making her to live,

he is the only one she see's wherever

she goes.... she feels him when she

closes her eyes and also when she

opens... she feels that he was watching

her every second...sometimes she feels

shy, she smiles alone....even in songs

she feels him....bcoz she loved him in

such a way...

once she utters his name her lips

shiver out of love and emotion as in

waiting for his precious kiss....this

shows how madly deeply totally she was in

love with him...

expecting nothing but just a pinch of care,

a pinch of love,

a pinch of appreciation for her little achievements,

a pinch of pampering, a pinch of

affection which matters and means a lot

to her....

once he was beside her, her heart felt

proud showing the world "he is my man..."

"he is my love....whom no one can defeat"

when he was walking with her, she felt

glad the way he protects her...

she felt secure when he guided her in

issues....she was dependent on him...for

his love....heavenly feeling...



but once he started teasing her the

jealous she felt on him, the

posessiveness she had on him showed her

love....

same way when he praised her saying

" u r my most beautiful angel in the world"

she felt his essence whenever she saw herself

in mirror believing that she was

beautiful to the eyes she loved....great

feeling...
for his mistakes she used to excuse him

with a loving heart which beats for

him.....she used to scold him for his

little lies....and he listens to

her....she loved him there....

and when he is scolding her for no reason

she loved it, bcoz she gave him the liberty and all

rights on her.....

the love she had on him can be seen as a

bright light in her eyes, a glow in her

face, grace in her walk, charm in her

smile, everything looks beautiful...she

felt that her life is full of colours..

wherever she see's...every dam thing

around her was mind blowing....

her heart was flying.....her feet and she

herself was flying.....exactly that time

she felt herself with him in his absence....awesome feeling....

The above shows how much she loved him...how devoted she was to him,

how high she meant him in her heart....
where in she felt proud that she doesnt

want anyone but just him....

thats the time she forgot everyone

her parents, friends, well wishers ,

including the almighty GOD...and thats the time

where GOD got angry on her.....bcoz she

was neglecting even HIM....but GOD

himself forgot that HE HIMSELF gave her

that feel called love on him....



suddenly one bad day he started ignoring

her it was a worse feeling she had a hard

time...when he tested her love she loved

to die to prove her love for him....when

he doesnt even try to understand her, she

felt that she was in a hell...when he was

finding reasons to get rid of her...and

her mind told her "he is trying to leave

u...ditch u" and

her heart said "he wont...."

a big war between heart and mind.

finally her mind defeated her heart....

the moment he said" i dont love you never ever call me....."

that was the time her heart broke and...

GOD was laughing at her

thinking HE won and she lost......


no words to explain such a painfull

feeling everything was blank...totally

blank...frustrated....irritated...depressed...

actually dont know wat to do....

everything was dark around her..

eyes were swellen out bcoz of no sleep....

tears dried up ....

totally hopeless, helpless, searched for him,

he was not there, he was no where

but his shadow was there with her as a devil...

wherever she went his thoughts where

around her his memories made her

mad......
it took a long time for her to become

normal......















so my sincere advice dont love a person

more than urself...it will give u

pain...a pain which will pinch u through

out ur life,it will follow u as a

shadow...